Birthdays are supposed to be happy times...Right??

Well I spent the whole day out shopping and just hanging out with Thomas. I am having a really hard time with the fact that tomorrow he will be 2. He will no longer be that little guy (like he ever was very little) but instead a big boy. My gosh where does the time go. I feel so blessed to have him in my life. I feel as if time is some how being stolen from me when I'm not looking. Two years... Two whole years have some how passed by so quickly. I so wish I could freeze time right now, Because this..Right now is honestly the best there is. Nothing warms the heart more than those sweet out of the blue smiles, or an unsolicited kiss, which is usually accompanied by "cookie" or "juice". Wow he has the world figured out already. Sucker a woman up then, you'll get what ever you ask for. So anyway back to the shopping. I stopped into Hallmark to pick up a birthday card. Wow, someone should have warned me that doing that at the hormonal time of the month was dangerous. I had about 3 crying fits in there, each card more sentimental than the last. I finally got smart and simply asked the clerk if they had anything with Thomas the train on it as a birthday card. Nope. So back over to the sappy stuff for 2 more crying episodes. The icing on the cake today. As we were all getting ready to head out tonight to get Gerald some new shoes, G asks if we need to grab his Blankie. Thomas shakes his head no, signs and says "all done" (Insert the sound of my heart breaking). All done how can he be all done with his blankie. Here I was clinging to the notion that if he still had a blankie then some how he was still my sweet little baby boy. Be careful what you say at this age, they absorbs it all. Earlier in the day I had made the comment to Gerald on the phone about TJ being all grown up and grown up boys don't use blankies. He took it literally. You will be glad to know though that the blankies presence was firmly demanded at bedtime tonight. So all is well in my little mommy world. I don't care if he 2 or 50.. He will always be my baby.